Sunday, August 10, 2008

From The Belly Of The Whale


Today's service from the Cathedral Church of the Advent in Birmingham, AL, was wonderful. Vice Dean Harper's message on Jonah touched me. The scripture lesson was from the book of Jonah 2:1-9.

Jonah prayed to the Lord his God from the belly of the fish, saying, 'I called to the Lord, out of my distress,and he answered me; out of the belly of Sheol I cried and thou didst hear my voice. For thou didst cast me into the deep into the heart of the seas, and the flood was round about me; all thy waves and they billows passed over me. Then I said, 'I am cast out from my presence; how shall I again look upon they holy temple?' The waters closed in over me, the deep was round about me; weeds were wrapped about my head at the roots of the mountains. I went down to the land whose bars closed upon me forever; yet thou didst bring up my life from the Pit, O Lord my God. When my soul fainted me within me, i remembered the Lord; and my prayer came to thee, into thy holy temple. Those who pay regard to vain idols forsake their true loyalty. But I with the voice of thanksgiving will sacrifice to thee; what I have vowed I will pay. Deliverance belongs to the Lord!


When asked if Vice Dean Harper believed Jonah was really inside a fish he answered, "If Jesus Christ believed it, it's good enough for me." I like that answer. Granted none of us have actually been swallowed up by a big fish, however, sometimes our circumstances swallow us whole and consume our lives. Whether it's something small or a large crisis, as humans we often find ourselves in a pit.

In my personal journey, I've been consumed by chronic illness, death, and divorce to name a few significant periods of darkness.Sometimes it has felt that I've been swallowed whole and that even insignificant earthly problems cause me to stumble through life's storms; like Jonah I've been in the belly of a big fish even if not in the literal sense. I haven't always walked with grace through the fire yet on this side of the coin I see how God has used all of these circumstances to refine my life. He has indeed lifted me out of the pit of despair. Thankfully like Jonah, I have learned to call to the Lord during these times. Indeed if you trust and lean on Him, He will use these to refine you, even redefine you. All we have to do is claim Christ as our Saviour and claim our salvation today.

After being told I might not live several times and thus undergoing an Adult Stem Cell Transplant (using my own stem cells) I look at things differently. Something that would have seemed huge to me a few years ago isn't nearly as tragic. If God can get me through the dark periods of my life, the rest is icing on the cake...A cake that now has 37 candles when I was told it more than likely would not have 30. I am thankful for the new life that the Lord has given me. I don't claim to have all the answers, quite the opposite. I don't call myself a "Christian Blogger" even though I blog on occasion and am indeed a Christian. A friend of mine has as their status on Facebook "Sinner, Saved By Grace". I want to adopt that philosophy myself (kudos, ARalph). Truly that defines me. By no means do I walk the straight and narrow path, as a matter of fact I'm still looking for my way in this life and in this world. "Just Hoping To Matter" as Reese Witherspoon said as June Carter Cash in Walk the Line. But knowing that though I've sinned, I am saved by God's grace and that He alone can and WILL lift me out of life's pits leads me to believe I'm going in the right direction even if I've been sidetracked along the way.

I'd like to close with the words to "How Firm A Foundation" (John Rippon). This is one of my favorite hymns and the second verse is a variation of my favorite scripture Isaiah 41:10. The words of this song say it best...
How firm a foundation, ye saints of the Lord,
Is laid for your faith in His excellent Word!
What more can He say than to you He hath said,
You, who unto Jesus for refuge have fled?

In every condition, in sickness, in health;
In poverty’s vale, or abounding in wealth;
At home and abroad, on the land, on the sea,
As thy days may demand, shall thy strength ever be.

Fear not, I am with thee, O be not dismayed,
For I am thy God and will still give thee aid;
I’ll strengthen and help thee, and cause thee to stand
Upheld by My righteous, omnipotent hand.

When through the deep waters I call thee to go,
The rivers of woe shall not thee overflow;
For I will be with thee, thy troubles to bless,
And sanctify to thee thy deepest distress.

When through fiery trials thy pathways shall lie,
My grace, all sufficient, shall be thy supply;
The flame shall not hurt thee; I only design
Thy dross to consume, and thy gold to refine.


Even down to old age all My people shall prove
My sovereign, eternal, unchangeable love;
And when hoary hairs shall their temples adorn,
Like lambs they shall still in My bosom be borne.

The soul that on Jesus has leaned for repose,
I will not, I will not desert to its foes;
That soul, though all hell should endeavor to shake,
I’ll never, no never, no never forsake.

Thursday, July 31, 2008

Feeling Not So Fabulous...


I've been in a virtual drought for months now...I hoped to return to blogging but I have not been inspired. I've had so many wonderful new experiences but I haven't had the words to write. I am searching for something inside me and looking to find my place and what I want to do in this world yet nothing seems to come to me. Fortunately I'm happy right now and I think that's most important because I haven't always had true HAPPINESS in my life. Truly, that is what is most important...being happy in my own skin. I celebrated my 37th birthday recently. It is the first one where I actually feel OLDER and in fact middle aged; but that really isn't a bad thing since I was told I probably wouldn't live to be 30. I have so many things to be thankful for and God has blessed me in every aspect of my life- the rest is truly icing on the cake; right? So why do I feel so "Unfabulous" right now? I am searching; yes I am searching. Psalms 37:4 keeps coming to my head "Delight in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart..." So I have to ask is that what I'm doing? Am I delighting in the Lord or am I delighting in all that is Natalie? When I hear myself asking God "How can I delight myself in you?" I hear him sigh..."I'm glad you asked". As usual Beth Moore has given me some inspiration. She refers to this as the ultimate feel good scripture. Isn't that what we're looking for? A quick fix; something to make us feel better. I know I am; indeed that is human nature. So in reading her words and thinking about this I realize that the ultimate reward and goal are in fact the desires of HIS heart; what God wants for me "Delight yourself in the Lord" not "Delight myself in what Natalie wants and what Natalie wants to do." So my question for now and the desire of my heart is to truly find what God wants from me. I ask for your prayers as I search to find the answer. If writing (whether it be blogging or other) is indeed part of my purpose; pray that I will find the words. Thanks!


Words from Beth Moore-
Psalm 37:4 is a transforming Scripture. In our treasure hunt, we discover a new depth of relationship with God, an indescribable delight, and a safety valve for our hearts. Treasures worth hunting-no matter what our original motives may have been.

Father, forgive me for sometimes seeking You with selfish motives. Let my heart's true motivation be the pleasure of Your presence. I want to delight in You and find that You are the one desire of my heart. Thank You for Your unfailing love. In the name of Jesus, Amen

Tuesday, April 8, 2008





Unfortunatley I haven't had time to update my blog in a while so "It's TEMPORARILY CLOSED" as soon as things settle down for me, I'll start back, I promise. Please continue to check periodically! Hope all is well and thanks for reading :)
Natalie

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Heaven at Highlands


I had a wonderful dinner last Friday night at Highlands Bar & Grill in Birmingham, AL. Frank Stitt's restaurants always amaze me with their creations but my dinner this night was particularly amazing. I had baked oysters that had spinach, a little bacon and cheese along with a terrific vidalia onion split pea soup; both were excellent, the oysters heavenly. The signature Orange Thing was a unusually good and my dessert- an apple pie with ice cream and a blood orange mimosa topped off a perfect evening...Sheer Bliss! Great food, great fun, excellent conversation :) Fabulousity at its finest!!! Just had to tell about it ;-)

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

Step Up For JOY


First let me apologize for my lack of updates- I've been in and out so much my head is spinning and when I went to update my blog on Sunday I realized I had no internet service. I was without cable of any kind from Sunday @ 3pm until Tuesday @ 3pm and I must say it has been quite a frustrating experience (thanks to TW Cable) but that's another blog and probably much more under the topic- unfabulousness or much more suited for Ramblings. But I bring it up because it is what started my day on a sour note.

The cable guy was to come to my house on Monday before five but no show, no call. Other than a quick trip to the vet with Noelle (who I'm sad to say has had a puppy virus) I was home and had my cell with me the entire time. I called that evening and was told I was rescheduled from Monday to Wednesday or Thursday. They didn't call me I remind you, I called them. I am heading out of town and I DON'T HAVE CABLE OR INTERNET...my life support system. Now they're telling me that if I am not going to be in town I may have to wait until NEXT WEEK. I'm trying to make this short and sweet...I was fuming and didn't sleep much Monday night and I had not really slept on Sunday either and on top of it all I haven't felt well and have kind of been run down. The Monday night Time Warner guy told me to call on Tuesday morning, etc. The first Tuesday morning guy was the guy who had given me all the false hope in the world on Monday morning and frustrated me to know end telling me it would indeed be later in the week before my cable was restored. So I called back...a very nice supervisor had mercy on me and told me (even if it was only what I wanted to hear) that I would indeed receive a service call TODAY and he didn't understand why Micheal had not noticed that I was on the schedule. I felt I was holding on to false hope. I was dragging and very tempted not to go to Bible Study. I was going to be late, very late but I am going to miss next week and I wanted to get there. My Tuesday Bible Study group is the bright spot in my week. Beth Moore hits me dead on each time and the lovely women who attend this Bible Study brighten my spirits and give me a restored faith in humanity in general. I dug deep...I made it in time for the Beth Moore part of the study.

The first words out of Beth's mouth were something like "We're going to taste some JOY today"; release it and experience complete joy. Admittedly I grumbled, hung my head...realized I only had some crystal light and not my Diet Pepsi Max caffeine jolt. Sigh. Okay, it looks like rain, it's turning cool and I have this cable crisis on my brain. My joints hurt, my stomach isn't real happy but I had taken the proper pill and sat up straight thinking "listen Natalie...just hold tight and listen."

Deuteronomy 16:15 (flip flip, shuffle pages; let's see what God is going to tell me)"For seven days celebrate the Feast to the Lord your God at the place the Lord will choose. For the Lord your God will bless you in all your harvest and in all the work of your hands, and your joy will be complete." Okay, maybe the cable guy is coming? Maybe this crystal light will pump me up and I'll feel better. I'm listening, I haven't fled the scene yet. We went through the good news and the waving of the palms and the Messiah's arrival on the donkey and all the amazing history and how all that page flipping makes me see the prophecy fulfilled and honestly every time I go in, I come out full. My joy is at least glass half full, but usually I'm perky Natalie and today I've been grumpy with the Time Warner man and I'm running on fumes so how is my joy glass going to run over by the end of the day?

Moving on to John 8:12..."When Jesus spoke again to the people he said, 'I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness but will have the light of life." Okay, I could use some light. It's dark and dreary at this point and I'm still pretty mellow but I am all up for Beth and feeling that my cup is going to run over with 20 minutes and counting. I'm not quite on the joy express but at this point I've realized that my cable isn't such a crisis and my bones don't hurt quite as bad so I've bought a ticket, sitting a little taller but still feeling a bit stressed.

Next we looked at John 7:37-38 Jesus said "If anyone is thirsty, let him come to me and drink. Whoever believes in me, as the scripture said, streams of living water will flow within him." Okay...I need some living water (since no Pepsi Max is handy). The celebration of water pouring and the streams of living water. Visualize. I closed my eyes and imagined Jesus pouring this living water over me...The Holy Spirit filling me up as cold water woke me up rushing over me. Boy did I need someone to pour some water over me. I was getting it...but I wasn't getting it. Why couldn't I shake my mood? Look and listen to all these wonderful promises of God...

Listening to Troy sing at the end I just got kind of lost. Hello!?! I thought I going on this joy ride, stepping up this morning yet for some reason I was still a bit grumpy. :( It wasn't as down in the dumps, my mood had lightened for sure just not quite as joyous as I felt I should be after reading some pretty significant passages from the Bible. What's a girl to do? So was I going to lunch with the group? Ummm...No. Ummm...Maybe... Well, I'll go sit, but I won't eat. At least talking to Andy and MaryAnn made me laugh. Good start.

When I arrived at ABC I ran into my aunt, uncle and friend. It was great talking to them. My aunt (praise the Lord) has just gotten a good report from another bout with an ovarian cancer recurrence and looks great. Her words were encouraging and we talked about my potentially talking to a girl suffering from Crohns. She mentioned some things we had in common, some sad things, but lots of blessings to remember. Work with me now because God is picking me up.

Then I ate with the most wonderful group of ladies from my Bible Study. Mitzi, Louise, Danna, Mrs. Lurie, Amelia, Sarah Bennett- I don't think you know how much I treasure each and every one of you and have felt blessed just getting to know you and ALL the ladies in the Tuesday morning study. Everyone wanted to hear about my Birmingham plans and everyone was a cheerleader. J-O-Y rising and rising. While we were there I saw some other uplifting people- Mindy & JD, Paula, Mary & Mrs. Hackman, Amanda Faulk. So Mitzi pointed out how many sweet people there are in the world and the next time somebody gets on our nerves we can think of all these various people. The conversation meter was way above uplifting and by the time I left after talking to Paula and her mother, I was bouncing out the door. The 'sun' wasn't shining but the SON was shining.

The rest of my day was wonderful...the sun came out eventually. My cable got fixed. Noelle did great in puppy class and I got to see Maddy. I visited a bit with Courtney, I was productive in the mass clean out of my home and I think I made a couple of people smile today. Since my ultimate blessing and restoration of good health, my 'Good Day Meter' is based on making people happy and making someone else smile. I went to the gym and I'm still pumped writing this. God is good and He certainly gave me a shot of JOY today. I'm so happy I rolled out of bed and Stepped Up. Indeed God kept His promise and my cup ran over with Joy :)

This blog is for the beautiful women of Tuesday morning "Stepping UP"...all ages, all stages of life. MaryAnn for blessing us with her leadership, all those who attend and Mitzi for reading my blog and encouraging me to keep it up! And of course, Beth Moore (who I feel like I know personally) for writing all her wonderful work. Merci beaucoups :)

To close I intentionally left out the second verse we read this morning because it sums up what I'm feeling now and what I hope to remind myself every morning whether or not I have tv & internet, whether or not I feel okay and even if the sun is not shining. Psalms 118: 24 "This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it."

This IS the day that the Lord has made...REJOICE & Be Glad!!! :)
If we only step up to receive God's blessings, He will give us the ride of our lives and our joy will be full.

Monday, March 3, 2008

"Nisi Dominus Frusta"



Nisi Dominus Frusta
"Without the Lord, Frustration"...

In my Stepping Up Bible Study (the Psalms of the Ascent, Beth Moore) there was a passage written by Benjamin Franklin in 1787 from his "Speech to the Convention for Forming a Constitution for the United States" that applies to our world today.

"In the beginning of the contest with Britain when we were sensible of danger, we had daily prayers in this room for the Divine protection. Our prayers, Sir, were heard and they were graciously answered...And have we now forgotten this powerful friend? Or do we imagine that we do no longer need his assistance? I have live for a long time (81yrs) and the longer I live the more convincing proof I see of this truth, that God governs in all affairs of men. And if a sparrow cannot fall without his notice, is it possible that an empire can rise without his aid? We have been assured, Sir, in the sacred writings, that 'Except the Lord build the house, they labour in vain that build it' I firmly believe this, and I also believe that without his concurring aid we shall proceed in this political building no better than the builders of Babel."


When I read this I thought of our world today as we are in the midst of war...Our lack of prayer...In our attempt to be politically correct by respecting the rights of other religions, we have set aside the 'In God We Trust' values in which our country was founded. With the political climate in the United States gearing up for a Presidential election in November as well as many other important offices, let us stop and pray. May we be led to rediscover the power of our Lord and the foundation that only he can provide. Without Him, we are nothing, our labor in vain.

I close with Psalm 127 (NCV) as food for thought:
If the Lord doesn't build the house,
the builders are working for nothing.
If the Lord doesn't guard the city,
the guards are watching for nothing.
It is no use for you to get up early
and stay up late working for a living.
The Lord gives sleep to those he loves.
Children are a gift from the Lord;
babies are a reward.
Children who are born to a young man
are like arrows in the hand of a warrior.
Happy is the man who has his bag full of arrows.
They will not be defeated when they
fight their enemies at the city gate.

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